Insensitive - Jann Arden

How do you cool your lips
After a summer’s kiss?
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you’d know anywhere?

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive

How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush?
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again...

Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of hope, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive

I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive

~ Jann Arden

Gotta love this song! =)

3 days @ home

Hey. Been sick for the past 3 days, today included. Had high fever (38.8), sore thorat and bodyaches. Man, I was like in a state of semi-consciousness, just lying down on my bed with my eyes closed like a diphtheria victim in Balto. What made it even worse was my bottom-right wisdom tooth decided to erupt at this moment. I had to literally swallow my dinner yesterday cause my molars could not touch. Yeah, not pleasant at all. =(

As I laid down, I was thinking of many things, like how school is now, what I have (or have not) done this year, etc... and I come to realise that if I worked and trained harder, my life would be much more meaningful. So yeah, I'll do much better with I return to school. Funny how sickness actually made me miss school. Wonder what my classmates are doing now, and whether I can catch up with my work when I return.

Anyway, I want to thank my Dad for sponging my forehead yesterday night. How should I put it? It was like experiencing pure fatherly love, and it is something I will remember for life. Thanks Dad, I really appreciate it. =)

If its too good to be true, its too good to be true.

Just had a hard and painful refresher course on this.

I wanted to trade some gear for a high-leveled rune on D2, but the gear that guy wanted was on two different characters. I don't know what the hell I was thinking, but I dropped my Shako on the ground after that guy *promised* he won't touch it. Naturally, when I tried to rejoin the game with my other char, it has been disbanded. Like GOD DAMMIT! He stole it and left! Seriously, now as I am lying down on my bed thinking about what happened, I am really pissed with myself. Like why in hell was I so STUPID to do such a thing?! Tried to get my bro to help out with the transfer, but he was busy at the moment, so like the fool I was, I trusted him and drop-traded. I don't know, maybe I was desperate to go to bed and end the bloody trade quickly. Dammit! Do I trust people too much? I know I do tend to give others the benefit of the doubt, but now I really don't know if its a good thing. Its precisely there's too much suspicion and disbelief in the world that is why I want to be someone different, someone who stands by the 'innocent until proven guilty' belief. Seemed like it back-fired. I really don't want to be someone who always mistrust others, having no faith in them. I've always believed that every person has a good side, and I want to stick to it. Oh well, just gotta be more careful next time. Hopefully this won't happen again, a lost Shako is painful enough. =(

P.S. I have sunburns on my arms and shoulder, and there's sea training later. Aww man! I won't have enough sleep either, waking up at 7 exactly. This weekend really sucks...  =(

Ow, ow, ow...

Shin splits. By definition, "Shin splints are an inflammation of the thin layer of tissue that covers the bone (periosteum). The bone tissue itself is also involved. The muscles that attach to the shinbone through the periosteum are the part of the shin that hurts." Damn, I wanted to run from home to Nativity church, but when I reached Kovan station, my shin split acted up. It felt as if the bone has been broken or something. Without my wallet, I had to walk all the way back to Serangoon (which is like what, 3 km?). Yeah, Ouch! As I walked along, I thought about my life currently, and somehow,this came to me: Life is hard and painful, but when you give up halfway, it will be much harder and more painful as it will be imprinted on your conscience. So yeah, I prayed and thanked God for this piece of wisdom, and I felt that I should do something about my life now, no matter how lazy I am. I should get started on that pile of papers huh?

Anyway, after geography today, I met up with my friend ZY. We were in front of the GO when he saw a friend of his. ZY then told me that guy was one of his "brothers". "Brothers?" I asked. He told me: "I got (have) a lot of brothers. One in rugby, one in class, that's you, ...." Frankly, I was pleasantly suprised! I had thought ZY only treated me as a friend to "gee siao", but as a brother? Wow man, I'm touched, like seriously! Then, I made a resolution to be more "brother" to ZY, cause under his "gee siao" attitude, he really is an unexpectedly wonderful friend. (P.S. I didn't hear the "..." - I was too suprised!) Hmm, seems like there are really great people in my life, and I have to "Jia You" and be a good friend as well, no? =)

Omg! What a mess!

There is a stack of papers and books just sitting there on my chair. It is the product of my laziness from last year, and I've been wanting to clear it before block tests. So far, what I've done is just to make it taller... =\ Will start tmr, I mean later, cause its like 1.30am right now. Been accompanying my bro playing Diablo 2 on b.net, so yeah, pretty much explains the time now. Oh well, better get some rest. Body's aching from 4k run, 55 pull-ups and 120 push-ups. Not nice, but oh well, training's like that. Think i have shin-split, my right shin bone's hurting. Hopefully tmr will be better. Okay, gotta sleep now. Gd'night =)

Rebirth!

Wow, its been like two years since I've posted anything on this blog. Don't know why, but I felt the need to rebirth my blog and facebook account. New resolution for 2010, maybe? Haha, I don't know, just felt like it.
So yeah, nothing much to say at the moment, perhaps that I'm thankful for learning many things and meet new people the previous year. I just wanna thank all my friends and family for everything they have done for me, cause you'all have helped me grow in so many ways. Resolved to work very much harder this year, so if you're reading this, remember to remind  me if you see me slacking ya? =)